2011
It's hard to look back.
As I read my journal for each month, I am amazed at all we went through.
The words and images bring tears.
Some days, the days I don't really think about what has happened, are fine.
But when I do think, when I do remember
There is no air to breathe.
I miss you my friend.
I miss your smile, and the twinkle in your eyes.
I miss holding your hand
and knowing that you were really there.
You weren't supposed to leave us.
Watch over us Kenny.
Take care of us just as you always did.
I am doing my best.
Perhaps they are not stars,
but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones
pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.
Eskimo Saying
13 comments:
Sending you lots of love and support, as best I can from Cranston :)
Yes, I believe our loved ones that have passed over are the shining stars in the sky looking down upon us. Believe it or not Cheryl, that gives me a lot of peace. The scar will always remain . . . in time it will not be so painful. Time is amazing, grief moves at it's own speed and you have to go along with it. Be good to yourself and know lots of people care about you. Lots of prayer sent your way today, Sandy:O)
Cheryl, this poignant touching post has brought tears to my eyes. I truly want to wrap my arms around you and tell you with time this will get easier. But I know that words cannot take away the loss or void of a loved one who has been taken from you. I know he is missed terribly, and I am sure the holidays make it particularly difficult. I hope you rely on your support system and accept all the hugs and words of comfort, there is no time table to how long this process takes but I remember my grandmother desribed it this way when my grandfather passed away....
"It never gets fully better, it never goes completely away, but you learn better coping skills on dealing with that void, if you accept that the void is a permament state in your life, you find coping mechanisms with how to walk around it and get around it somehow and in due time". She did go on to lead a full and rich life again but always accepted that there was a sliver of her life that represented his passing, and she said she came to cherish that little void because it was a constant reminder of how much she had loved him and how she missed him. Dont' know if that makes sense but I thought it was a beautiful way to express what she was honestly feeling. She never wanted to fully feel whole again, it was her sacrifice in a way to the loss. And now that she is gone, that is how I feel about her. Sending you a hug and a smile.
Wishing you the healthiest and happiest possbile 2012!! May it be a year of healing, comfort, peace, new happiness, and smiles.
Your friend, Tina
As C.S. Lewis so aptly put it in A Grief Observed, "I miss that tang of otherness." Thinking of you and saying a prayer for your comfort and peace.
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
*****
((Cheryl))
The Eskimo quote is very pretty.
Hello Cheryl
I am so sorry for your loss. I have lit a candle for you and will remember you in prayer and ask for peace and hope to return to your life.
Love,
Helenxx
*** What does one say to/do for someone, when they are "strangers", but you know their hearts are broken with the loss of someone sooooo cherished???... In many ways, the same as we do with our loved ones. We share & TRY to understand their loss, and try to "be there" for them, whether they need a warm, sincere hug, kind words or simply need to express their loss in words & just need/want someone to listen and understand???
I read your poignant story and my heart welled up with tears... lots of them... for you... there's sooo much we can all say but nothing that's "enough" or "perfect", so please know, stranger or not, that my heart is with you, especially at this time when your pain is so fresh...
Bless you, bless your wonderful, darling sweetheart for just BEING HIMSELF & loving you all ~~~ THOSE PICTURES are what I would choose to remember him by. He was darling, & he even LOOKS like the way you described him! I think we would have loved to have known you both...
With warmest, & most sincere thoughts,
Linda in AZ *
bellesmom1234@comcast.net
*** A PERSONAL NOTE~~~ Cheryl, I am really in tears right now... Your backpost are so deep, so meaningful. I looked/read back, and once again saw the pictures of your Kenny when he was happy & funny & well... What a guy! What a Dad!!! I KNOW whe was adored by many... that's easy to tell... Again, I send peaceful blessings to you, and your most beautiful children who, it's obvious, adored Kenny so much too.
XO, Linda
Cheryl, you have a beautiful way of putting feelings into words, this made me sob. Let your wonderful memories carry you through.
love you
Kathy
you are doing your absolute best even on the worst day! wishing you love & a happy new year!
pve
Cheryl,
Your words, your photographs, the quotes you find...always stop me in my tracks and make me realize what is truly important. You really are an amazing person. I think of you often even though we've never really met, but you have a way to leave an impression....one that I never forget. When I say that I wish you all the best in 2012, I hope you know that I truly mean that, from the bottom of my heart.
I love your new profile pic...you look stunning!
xo
annie
Cheryl, thank you for stopping by my blog and saying hello. You have been through so much this year - I can't imagine. Wishing you great happiness in 2012. I plan to stop by and visit your lovely site!
I'm so very sorry.... I am always so touched when I come here. You help me put my own life in perspective. I love the Eskimo saying! I must copy it and put it somewhere safe.
Here's to a happier 2012!
xoxo
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