I have been in a fog this week
I attended a funeral today
Scott was a husband
He was a father
His oldest daughter, Daphne, was in class with Alexandra
His triplets, Audrey, Gregg and Chris
were in class with Graham
The boys played soccer.
There were years that we would see
each other a few times a week.
We weren't close
And yet I can't stop thinking about them
Such a hard week
Knowing that they are each
going to go through this
in their own way
in their own time.
I wish I could help them
I wish I could tell them that they are going to be alright
But how can I do this?
I am only moments ahead of them
Cindy, Daphne, Audrey, Gregg and Chris
We are here
A few steps ahead
On a lighter note
For those who know that I have been doing my little snow dance
It worked
It was beautiful
A winter wonderland
I am quite sure Kenny was watching over me.
10 comments:
Cheryl,what a beautiful piece. You are spot on. My nephew was taken from us in 1998 at the age of 19. It was too sudden, too soon, and has been so painful. To help friends that are going through grief I have found to be helpful with my own grief. It was the only purpose I could place on a senseless death of a wonderful kid. You will still be able to be there for your friends because you have lost. You know what that is like and that is so important. Others mean well, but unless they have been though it.. it is just not the same. A big hug from down the hill. I am reading the rest of your blog. It is all so beautiful and amazing.
Heartfelt and touching post. I will keep this family in my prayers. Hope are you are doing well - how nice that you got the snow fall you so desired! We're having unseasonably warm weather here - snow would be a welcome site (for just a bit). :)
Hi Cheryl,
Definitely could relate . . . you do get through it, as hard as it is. Watching them, makes you realize how much you have been through already. Those dark days are not ones I want to remember. Seeing it from the other side is so different now . . . this life or journey, whatever you want to call it, is definitely about "you and God" and nobody else. As humans, we have to live through all of these emotions and some how get through all of them in one piece. Blessings and love sent your way, Sandy:O)
Hi Cheryl, you know better than anyone that death is totally unexplainable, why would God want to hurt those he loves? When we lost someone very close to us, I questioned that for a long time.
Somtimes there is no answer and we need to come to terms. I just heard of a tragic story yesterday too about a 19 year old who didn't wake up from his sleep, his mother went to wake him. Those things arene't supposed to happen either. Tragic and devastating to all those who love them.
Your post was beautiful and very poignant, I will keep that family and you in my prayers.
My snow dance worked too! The day we moved in, it was the most beautiful "welcome home" present imaginable!
Hello Cheryl:
Such a tender and beautifully written and illustrated post. So many parallels with your own loss, this must enable you to give the support that the family need at this moment.
You are making those tiny steps and they are moving you forward. That is really all one can do and be a friend.
This is absolutely beautiful, Cheryl. I can feel the empathy for your friends.
I just found your blog through Country Girl's and have been reading through your posts the last several months. I am very sorry for your loss and amazed at your strength and grace.
Your pictures, your prose, your heart. My heart breaks with you, the fog will clear, at least for a few hours, a little more each day. Hugs to you my friend.
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How to make sense of it is a challenge and also the blessing as we grope around trying to know how we fit in the world minus one of our anchors.
The photos are glorious and I am so glad Kenny's spirit came with the snow. For my Sister and I, the sight of a fox (most unusual for her, living far from me ) was the moment we sensed our Dad's spirit still with us.
Cheryl,
Loss is never easy but we must comfort one another and know that those tiny holes in the sky where the stars shine are all our loved and lost ones - sparkling down on us.
Snow does provide a blanket of security. I wish we had more this year. It does not feel the same this winter without snow, and life without those who are so dear to us, also does not seem right nor the same.
pve
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